January 2012
1 post
February 2011
2 posts
Choking on a word...
My rational brain is dominating my open heart. I’m biting my tongue. It almost hurts not to say it.
I’ll never find someone quite like you… yet, I want it to be special. Not special in a Mary Tyler Moore kind of way, or in an Extra Value Meal at Happy Burger way… I mean special. I want it to be more meaningful than I am able to really describe because… you’re...
Wanted
With a little help from the Internet we slowly started to bond. To become friends. I read her blogs. They made me sad because I knew so well the feelings she described. Not just the loneliness, but the feeling of being unwanted. The feeling of desperation that comes with trying to have long distance relationships. The worry that the next one will be just as fickle as the last. One night she...
January 2011
4 posts
I fall. I hit the bottom. I don't break.
It’s like some Groundhog Day nightmare.
I’m totally losing my marbles.
BREAK, DAMN YOU! FEEL SOMETHING!
I'm really good at making friends.
:(
I'm not hiding anything.
If there are things I don’t talk about it’s because I’m not comfortable doing so. Since when is my life public domain? There are things I might not ever tell you. Ever. They’re not bad things, they’re just personal. Deal with it or leave me alone.
Yesterday, today, something, something.
Yesterday I went to the city and made an awesome new friend, Krista. We hung out all day and got delicious coffee and weird shaped pizza and tried our best not to look like hipsters with our silly glasses, unlabeled coffee cups, cigarettes, plaid and obscure band shirts. Then later we learned how incredibly directionally retarded we are after spending many worried hours of not being able to find...
December 2010
12 posts
Off to the city!
So far it isn’t raining. Yay. Going to San Francisco and then Oakland today. Making new friends. Seeing The Residents and Primus. Getting bacon donuts!!! Yeah. I don’t have a data plan right now so I wouldn’t expect any live blogging about this, but I will definitely be reporting my findings when I can.
Have a good day you guys. :)
You'll never know
what you do to me.
So.... new blog...
Obviously I’m not getting rid of this.
I need a fresh start on Tumblr. That’s what its about. I feel like I have too many followers/follow-back type commitments on my other blog and my feed is just too busy with crap I don’t care about. No offense.
Also, there’s soooo much about me nested in that other blog and it’s all indexed by Google and I’m just not...
OK, maybe I'm just a crab.
That “whale whale whale” photo I reblogged had at least 12,000 reblogs already. I’m overanalyzing this… also I’m not a fan of TMI Tuesday in any way.
I have this feeling...
I’ll never see you again.
Or you… or you… or you… or you…
or you.
So I'm not really asleep... Not yet anyway.
My mind is aglow with whirling, transient nodes of thought careening through a cosmic vapor of invention… OK, I stole that. I’m just… thinking. Too much thinking, in fact. I need to stop thinking.
Restlessssssss.....
I’m feeling stuck again. I get this way every couple months, no matter where I am. I just want to flee. To go… somewhere… or to do something irrational, whichever comes first. Usually I can just quit my job and then I feel better, but my job isn’t like that anymore… The most drastic thing I’ve done is take off to Missouri for 7 months, but even that...
My Tumblr family is the best family.
Because you’re always here for me.
Is it weird that you guys know me better than anyone I know in person?
I almost wrote “in real life” instead of “in person”, but you guys aren’t any less real. Anyway, have an awesome day guys and gals!
Sort of goes with previous post...
This post contains a little TMI… hence the “Read More” break. Do what you will. (I can’t tell if the read more break is working… oh well.)
Everybody needs somebody. (I can’t, in good conscious, use such a cornball phrase without explicitly stating that its purpose in this post is merely to establish a fact.) It’s true. Even me. Especially me. But...
I think I'll go eat worms.
If I had a nickel for every girl that turned me away I’d have about 50 cents, my apparent net worth. If I had a penny for every girl I never paid attention to, I’d be a fucking millionaire. Why am I so hung up on loose change?
I love you guys. Seriously.
I follow a lot of people, and a lot of people follow me, and some of them I’ve become good friends with. You know who you are. I love you guys so much. From kind words to cute drawings to keeping me company at odd hours of the night, you guys always make my day a little brighter. I’m not only a little happier, but I feel very welcomed. It almost brings a tear to my eye. :,) If I had...
November 2010
15 posts
Another year gone.
I did not accomplish what I wanted to this year. I should set realistic goals, like “cause myself lots of unnecessary grief”. I’m really good at that.
Let’s see, but what did I do?
I bought a Mac Mini in lieu of seeing the live Pee Wee show in L.A. (long story)….
I actually had a valentine on Valentine’s day. There’s a first for everything I suppose....
If I could only sing
I’d sing the song my heart composes.
Unrequited love is the saddest thing of all.
Expectations are problematic.
Because when you expect the wrong thing, it’s hard to see the right thing right in front of you.
I think I think I think
Therefore…
Glad is good. Glad is not bad.
I’m not as upset as I probably sound… My previous post was just a general rant, although it’s a cue that I need to make some changes in order to be happy.
It bothers me...
How much people depend on me. I’m everyone’s “go to” guy, but when I need someone to “go to” I’ve got nothing. Who do I get to depend on? What if I get sick? Who’s gonna drive me to the hospital? Fucking nobody.
Open up to those who matter.
Adding this to my list of near impossible tasks.
@shipofsinnersandsaints
Thanks, love. I’ll be OK.
I’m just thinking about things I’ve tried to forget. Why I torture myself like this I’ll never understand.
Since this isn't a 365 anymore I changed the look...
Nothing big, but it looks really nice. :)
Miffed by the best.
Is my perception on reality very askew or are people really ignoring me? Rhetorical question. Of course they are. Although I couldn’t tell you why. I think I’m pretty interesting…
On a side note, don’t come running back to me when your boyfriend dumps you. No-ho-ho you don’t! Fuck THAT! Leave me alone!
I. Can't. Read.
You.
I always feel like I missed something during childhood that would have explained everything, that would give me the power to understand other people. I have no idea what you think of me. I don’t know if you hate me, like me, tolerate me, want my babies- I don’t fucking know. If you’re not wearing a huge sign that explains your feelings, I’m pretty clueless. And I...
I'm doing really bad keeping up my 365.
For whatever reason it no longer interests me. I’m going to start using this blog to write what’s in my head instead. Not many people really follow this, and those of you who are, that I know, I trust.
Uhhhhhh… I guess that’s all for now.